Hello 2020

Hello world.. What's up world, its has been 11 years I blog. But this nothing, just wanna say hello 2020 and soon bye bye 2020.

HELLO 2020

Signing off, Esther

late blog!!! sowey!

Hey Readers,
Im Sorry to take ages to update my blog. Why took me such a long time to update? Well, Im very tired these days after coming back from work. Secondly, Im facing some internet connection failer. The line here always drop and its hard for me to load a page which take me hours. Thirdly, I will forget cos I was busying playing with neighbour kids. Neighbour Kids?? You heard that? Kids. Hahaha..i like kids. Once I played with them,surely I will forget things that I need to do.

When I count back the months after leaving capital town, my tears start to drop. I miss the laughter and fellowship. I miss the people over there. As I think back,my anger came back. I don’t know why as I thought that I’ve forgiven them but the things still inside me. I wish the thing wont bother me but it happen again in my office. How long shall I keep it. You like it if I keep on poyring out tears..? I’ve trying to chill up with life but the burden its on me. I know I tell it out loud but its always in me.

Don’t judged it look by its cover. Just like me. Don’t see me im a happy-go-lucky and smile always. I might be nice but hurt its in me. I try to let it go buy going to Lake with new friends. “hilang stress” konon lah..!

Im planning to come down to KL but my job wont allow me too. I have 3 project to be done. First, Mooncake festival decoration. Second, Raya Hamper Corner decoration. Last, Merdeka Hanging mobile display. Now Im the only person who is doing alone. Wish me he best, pals..! Currently run of budget too. Im having stress as my sister insisted me to but insurance. I don’t have enough to support myself using monthly salary,how can I buy that? I know its important to get on but its not a time yet. This thingy it’s a monthly commitment.

Sorry If I dint attend church for pass few months. I will go when time is right. I love try new things. I’ve try doing few things when I was in Kulim. I drank beer/alcohol once. Soon going to disco. Dress up like Gothic. I know it is wrong but never wrong of being trying once. I’ve smoked when I was 5. but now,I don’t. I just want to try. I think I’ve gone naughty and wild…hahaha..forget about it. Just mind our own business lah!!


Kkk, I hate to write lots of words…! Just ignored my grammar and spelling mistake. Im not perfect.

Bye!!

Back..!

hey,
im sorry for been late to post up things. Basically im working then the Idoit Internet connection peace me off..! So,i try to fix my time accordingly which i failed. I will try to post up things soon. I will post more about Mothers day and my KL trip..!

Stay tune ya..!

After leaving KL

Dear me,

I know its kind of long didn’t blog. Many things happen after I came back from KL. I’ve done my Sem4’s exam on end of February. Then im preparing to transfer all my rubbish back to my sister’s house. I collected 4 boxes and 2 bags of my 12 years stay in KL. I found a transporter to carry my things back. All cost about 66 bucks. Oh God, I run out of cash now..

Oh..its gonna be my last of staying in KL. Hehe..not actually last cos I might be coming.. im really miss KL. Folks, do you miss me? Well, some may miss me but some not. I understand. In relationship, there will be a some kind of “Missing”thingy..

When I was in the bus heading to Kulim, I wanted to cry cos its quite heavy for me to leave a busy town. I started to miss Mc Donalds which I can get easily in KL but not in Kulim. I think Kulim abit “ULU”. No cinema, No McD…

Actually its quite nice to stay too cos too relaxing which make me lazy too. Im starting to find work. My first Interview at Genting,FAILED! Well, maybe God want me to work there. I gonna try few works at Penang. If can, I want jobs like designing, doing baby thingy, hotel, or anything that speak less mandarin..hahaha

Arrrgggkkk…why I feel so strange of myself. I’ve lost Esther in me. What happen to Esther who use to be noisy, the who how always jokes, the one who always smile and the one who always friendly? I miss Esther. Esther, please come back. I miss you, really really miss you.

Come back!!!

its Done.

Dear me,

all the pleasure & sweats is all paid in full. Thanks to those who actually encourage me to finish it. Without them,i guess im a failure in my studies. I remember Jacq kinda harsh at me and wants me to finish it. Dont even let me have a peep at Mulan show. hahaha..thanks all.. Now i can really enjoy!!

but not fully enjoy cos my real life going to begin. Going to make choices between working and study. I found out college dy. Its in Han Chiang College at Freeschool Road. Working? still hunting for it. I will try to look for a job at Nuffnang or some internship jobs to get experiences..if not,gonna work as a cashier somewhere in shopping complex.. but im still making decision.

Well,at first when i came down to KL. I start to miss my home. I think too lonely. I wont adapt the new place where i stay. I stayed at Methodist Centre for Women & children's hostel. so,they located my room near busy highways to Genting & Gombak..its was my mistake cos i didnt choose the room properly. Its was very noisy cos the sound of the car banging on the yellow bars. It was sleepless nites but now im use to it.

Thanks to those who make my birthday as a suprise. Love you guys alot..! I know its fun when you played / dress me up.. its was super duper fun. and thanks for all you time. Jacq & Adeline, thanks for accompany me during the weekends. Love you both heaps. Dawn, thanks for the time, your house & your internet. its was lovely being with you. I hope i can spend more time but life its not a road of rosses. but i promise i will drop by to visit you all again.

Well,my time in KL almost up. I going back to Kulim this Wednesday. things has planned up. Next weekend going for undang test. Taking up driving license so that next time i can drive you guys around when you come up. Then my college intake will be on April.. hopefully i can i can transfer to the last 2 semester which cost me rm5k++..if not,gonna pay rm7k+. Im taking loan from PTPTN. then mayb ask extra cos wanna get a DSLR camera. not sure yet but i will try.

Ok folks,wait for my next post. if i post,maybe i will be in Kulim.

here some picture when im in KL.

Life's Journey...

Dear me,

After leaving KL its hard for me but im not belongs to where i use to belongs to. Just like the Lyrics wrote in Chris Daughtry's song HOME. -> I'm going home, Back to the place where I belong.. I found out that i do not belongs here. My heart has set on my homeland. I begins to like my homeland & family. But i still like my KL friends & family too. I will never forget the moment together. Once a while i will be back to visit them.

Ok, i dont know what to write but i will try to update my blog frequently. Cos i just install Streamyx in my house in Kulim..yeah!!!

Stay tune for more..!!

,,,the journey has just began...

Dear me,

I know it tough for me to leave KL but i know i can make a change. It just the matter of heart and actions. As i look back,i have many blessing that God never fails to provide. For example, CARE. who else can i receive? Both my parent just leave. But God always open ROADS for me. He brings people to care and love me.

Well, yesterday(23/1) is my last day of staying in Sunbeams. Its hard for me to leave but this is the best solution to make things cool down. I'm gonna miss those little ones like Eric, Kevin, Grace, Riezla, Katty, Pauline, Jason and etc.. Ofcos not forgetting all the older ones cos we have been the road together, serve together,eat together,sleep together and fellowship together. Im treasuring those time we had. I'm gonna miss it for now.

Im gonna post "on the journey back to Penang" in another post cos this post i want to share my feeling....

I want to Thank God for the opportunity he gave me while im KL. I've learn many things there. I leaned to fellowship with God and people. If i never came to KL,i wouldn't know God. Thank God the change I am now. If i done wrong,im taking it as learning. There is nothing to loose if i try. Just learn from it,and dont repeat it.

I want to Thank those who sms/msg me when i leave:-

+ Jacqueline
+ Ps Rachel
+ Sis. Lily
+ Rachel Raj
+ Emily Indra
+ Christina
+ Peter W
+ Micheal Tan
+ Micheal Lean
+ Mariessa
+ Brendan lee
+ Rima Nadiya
+ Lydia B
+ Rebecca
+ Shannon
+ Joey
+ Nicole Siti
+ Jessica BS
+ Doreen Yeo
+ Jayne Lau
+ Aunty Helen
+ Aunty Dorothy
+ Aunty Fong Jie
+ Aunty Mimi
+ Sis Ruth P
+ some of the Kids...
+ more....

All of them, when they send,i feel like crying. Yesterday i was in Jusco, recieve a sms from PR..i was so touch til cry in the mall. So ashamed..! but i still can control..

I want to thank those who bless me cash. Im gonna use this cash to inves a DSLR cam..then i can be pro like Daniel Tai..hehehe..im over take him dy!!!

Ok, I guess need to stop here. I will posr again...


look for more...! Stay tune!